There are a few things that have been bugging me lately. One of them is when people ask me how my back is or how I’m recovering from the surgery (nearly a year ago now) and immediately follow it with “I haven’t heard you complaining much - you must be completely better.”
And not a single time do I know how to respond. Because really, would you want to be around a person complaining of their aches and pains constantly? Cause even I don’t want to be around me when I’m complaining constantly. So I don’t complain when I want to, not even to Richard most of the time.
So no, I’m not completely better. And yes I’m still in constant pain. Every day is not if I feel good or bad - it’s a measure of just how bad do I feel today and can I get through it or can I push past the pain. I will not argue that things haven’t gotten better since the surgery because things have gotten exponentially better - but I am still far from 100%. I guess what I’m trying to say is that I wish people would quit assuming that I can do anything or I can last all day when I can’t - and they just seem to imply that I’m being lazy if I say that I’ll forgo an activity when I know that I just can’t handle it.
Also, I am glad that we’re forgoing our trip south this christmas break, it’s just too much to travel 16 hours each way for a couple days with family, especially when there’s still some weird feelings between me and some of them. I think really I just don’t feel like dealing with any more Republican bullshit than I’m already facing here right now.
